Sometimes, life makes a decidedly ‘sucky turn’.
After a ‘season of plenty’, a monsoon of everything blessed and good — I landed right smack in a desert, a wilderness — waiting for death to come for me.
I suppose the situation was further exacerbated by the fact that I’d been shirking on the important things and getting fixated on the superficial; running away instead of pushing forward and complaining instead of being grateful.
Just when I could find no more strength nor resolve to say “no” to my flesh and to say “yes” to what I know God would want for me — God gives me exactly what I need.
First, my cable starts acting up and eventually quits. Then, my internet/wi-fi decides to have episodes and dies. Finally, my ‘head cold’ decides to make a comeback tour opening with its own banging rendition of “Worlds Collide”.
At some point, I decided to sleep off the problem – hoping that tomorrow things would bring better news.
No such thing.
I begrudgingly begin my morning chores when I receive a call. It was Jimmy Stewart – a pastor friend of mine – calling out of the blue – just to “check up on me” or was it “touch base”? Something like that.
After a short chit-chat filled with further random references to ‘Deeper Still’, ‘logos’ and ‘Inception’ (which I will blog about in coming days), I was left sitting in the middle of my living room – mop in hand and realizing – “this was not a random coincidence at all”.
I start feeling like I’m inwardly smiling and feeling the need to bow in thankfulness. With just one phone call, I felt like I had a turn around, a “recharge” — WOW.
Later on through the day, I pondered on this amazing provision and I felt that the whole thing reminded me of 1 Kings 17 – where Elijah was sent by God to hide away along the Brook Cherith with the promise of being fed by ravens (of all things).
Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary explains the moral of the story so beautifully
If Providence calls us to solitude and retirement, it becomes us to go: when we cannot be useful, we must be patient; and when we cannot work for God, we must sit still quietly for him. The ravens were appointed to bring him (Elijah) meat, and did so. Let those who have but from hand to mouth (i.e. people who have learned to depend on themselves), learn to live upon Providence, and trust it (God) for the bread of the day, in the day. God could have sent angels to minister to him; but he chose to show that he can serve his own purposes by the meanest creatures, as effectually as by the mightiest.
Ravens are a strange way of provision since they are quite notorious as those who never come back (raven from Noah’s ark) and those who wouldn’t even feed their own (Psalm 147). Jimmy is not a raven per se – but he was an unlikely source of much-needed provision.
God was showing me, as he had showed Elijah, “Don’t worry, I will provide.”
My facebook status says it all — “Internet is down. Cable is down… but somehow, things are finally looking up.”
By the way, I came home and just when you thought the high was over — the internet miraculously starts working (GASP). God is THAT good.